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Akeelah and the Bee

December 23rd, 2006 (07:11 pm)

Consequences of laughing: uncomfortable

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

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New 'Do

November 7th, 2006 (07:49 pm)

Consequences of laughing: Undecided
Let the bare feet be the last sound that they hear: Pour Some Sugar on Me -- Def Leppard

Help Chelsea pick a new hairdo!!

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Campbells, mm mm good.

September 21st, 2006 (02:26 am)

Consequences of laughing: indifferent
Let the bare feet be the last sound that they hear: Cambell's Soup Jingle

Heh, so I've been thinking a lot lately about the future. Where will I be. Where will you guys be? Will our paths cross? Once we're out of high school, will we not talk to each other again? Will we stick with each other, or crumble apart? Will we go to the same college? Who'll have kids? Who'll be the crazy cat lady (*coughcoughmecough*)? Sometimes I wonder. Not a negative wondering, though. Just...curious.
And I've come up with a list of my possible occupations:

Psychologist (even though I think they're wack-jobs)
Author/Writer in general
Pastry Chef
Marine Biologist

And I've yet to think of more.

Gaah, I've been having a major anxiety/stress/panic attack tonight. I guess it's just because of the massive amounts of homeworks and labs and presentations that I know I'm sure to fail. Hey, it's just middle school, right? If only I could get that into my stupid perfectionistic brain. Rawr. D<

Yeah, I dunno. But I think I'm going to take a break from you guys (haha, it sounds like we're in a relationship) just for a while. "I need some time off." "It's not you, it's me." "I need some space." Insert your insanely cliche breakup line here. : ) Either way, I think I'll take a couple weeks off from talking to you guys, and try and gather myself up, make some sense of my situation. Maybe punch a couple people here and there (psh, I wish). I'm just babbling now. xP I'll still post, I just won't reply to your posts or comments. I'm on partial hiatus? Maybe I won't post entries. I'll figure it out as I go along. : )

Anyways, if this is indeed my last post for a couple weeks, I'll say adios for now!

chelsea dagger [userpic]

It always comes around, back to you

September 19th, 2006 (09:39 pm)

Consequences of laughing: blah
Let the bare feet be the last sound that they hear: Back to You -- John Mayer

Yuck. Advances Spanish sucks ass.

Well, not really because I love the teacher and she's funny and she treats us like peers. So I just don't like the homework.

We had to write a one page essay. Okay, not so bad, right? It had to be in Spanish. Hell, I can't write a freakin' essay in English, and you expect me to do whaaaa?! Oh well, I'm just crossing my fingers for now.

Aaand on a different note, I'm getting voice lessons. : )

I know, I'm a total copycat, blah blah blah, but it sounded like a good idea, so why not?
And if I can get my butt to some acting lessons, that'd be splediferous.
I'd even do dance if I wasn't cursed with two left feet. Or two right feet. Either way...xP
And once I tackle singing and acting, I can finally make a fool of myself at the school musical audition! :D

Um...yeah. xP
On another, totally bummerific note, my mom checked out books from the library such as How to Cope with Your Depressed Teenager. Umm, wtf? I'm not depressed, god damnit. >:O

And she knows.
And I'm a tad really pissed. >:O

But ending on a happy note!
We're doing Harry Potter in band, woohoo!
And I got some calcium supplements at CVS that don't taste like shit.

chelsea dagger [userpic]

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September 16th, 2006 (10:52 pm)

I'm abusing this journal like an SOB. xD

Angst is a feeling of dread, anxiety, or anguish often accompanied by depression.

Grr, I'm distressed. >:O

chelsea dagger [userpic]

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September 16th, 2006 (03:26 pm)

Is anybody mad at me for any reason?

If so, I'd like to know, thanks.

chelsea dagger [userpic]

But she don't love that shit, I know

September 16th, 2006 (01:19 pm)
Let the bare feet be the last sound that they hear: Ring the Alarm -- Beyonce

haha, I love my English teacher. "No, you're not too loud or eccentric for me! I was you when I was younger, just a little angrier." "Please, let us have silence so everyone can write on their creamy delicous blank page." You guys would like her. : )

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Extroversion (24%) low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.
Accommodation (55%) medium which suggests you are moderately kind natured, trusting, and helpful while still maintaining your own interests.
Orderliness (35%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, random, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of structure, reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Emotional Stability (10%) very low which suggests you are extremely worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Inquisitiveness (55%) medium which suggests you are moderately intellectual, curious, and imaginative.
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chelsea dagger [userpic]

(no subject)

September 14th, 2006 (05:26 pm)

Okay, strike that idea. Didn't work too well. =-O

But yeah. I dunno what I'm actuall doing updating and all. xP

Except that I shall say that I shall do my best to never write anything that is relevant to my life.


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What if I wanted to break?

September 11th, 2006 (03:58 pm)

Consequences of laughing: quixotic
Let the bare feet be the last sound that they hear: The Kill -- 30 Seconds to Mars

My Personality

Openness To Experience
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You are introverted, reserved, and quiet with a preference for solitude and solitary activities. Your socializing tends to be restricted to a few close friends. You can be easily upset, even by what people consider the normal demands of living. People consider you to be sensitive and emotional. Novelty, variety, and change spice up your life and make you a curious, imaginative, and creative person. You have a strong interest in others' needs and well-being. You are pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled.

Neuroticism Overall Score: 99
Anxiety: 98
Anger: 96
Depressiin: 96
Self-Consciousness: 99
Immoderation: 84
Vulnerability: 99

You can be easily upset, even by what people consider the normal demands of living. People consider you to be sensitive and emotional. You feel tense, jittery, and nervous and often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. You may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. You feel enraged when things do not go your way. You are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter if you think you are being cheated. You tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. You are sensitive about what others think of you. Your concern about rejection and ridicule cause you to feel shy and uncomfortable around others. You are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Your fears that others will criticize or make fun of you are exaggerated and unrealistic, but your awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. You feel strong cravings and urges that you have difficulty resisting. You tend to prefer short-term pleasures and rewards over long-term consequences. You experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress.

Extraversion Overall Score: 3
Friendliness: 10
Gregariousness: 0
Assertiveness: 14
Activity Level: 0
Excitement-Seeking: 42
Cheerfulness: 56

You are introverted, reserved, and quiet with a preference for solitude and solitary activities. Your socializing tends to be restricted to a few close friends. People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. You often need privacy and time for yourself. You tend not to talk much and prefer to let others control the activities of groups. You lead a leisurely and relaxed life. You would prefer to sit back and smell the roses than indulge in high energy activities. You enjoy some excitment and risk taking in your life. You have a generally cheerful disposition.

Openness To Experience Overall Score: 93
Imagination: 85
Artistic Interests: 87
Emotionality: 91
Adventurousness: 39
Intellect: 59
Liberalism: 99

Novelty, variety, and change spice up your life and make you a curious, imaginative, and creative person. Often you find the real world is too plain and ordinary for your liking, and you use fantasy as a way of creating a richer, more interesting world for yourself. You love beauty, both in art and in nature. Sometimes you become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. You have good access to and awareness of your own feelings. Familiar routines are good, but sometimes you like to spice up your life with a bit of adventure or activity. You enjoy a certain amount of debate or intellectual thought, but sometimes get bored with too much. Often you exhibit a readiness to challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. Sometimes you feel a certain degree of hostility toward rules and perhaps even enjoy ambiguity.

Areeableness Overall Score: 89
Trust: 97
Morality: 90
Altruism: 89
Cooperation: 7
Modesty: 98
Sympathy: 77

You have a strong interest in others' needs and well-being. You are pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You naturally assume that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. You see no need for pretense or manipulation when dealing with others and are therefore candid, frank and sincere. People find it relatively easy to relate to you. You find helping other people genuinely rewarding and are generally willing to assist those who are in need. You find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice. You are not adverse to confrontation and will sometimes even intimidate others to get your own way. You do not like to claim that you are better than other people, and generally shy from talking yourself up. You are tenderhearted and compassionate, feeling the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity.

Conscientiousness Overall Score: 56
Self-Efficacy: 59
Orderliness: 57
Dutifulness: 54
Achievement-Striving: 82
Self-Discipline: 83
Cautiousness: 6

You are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled. You are moderately confident that you can achieve the goals you set yourself. You are a reasonably organized person and like to have a certain amount of routine in your life. You sense of duty and obligation is average and although you are mostly responsible you can sometimes be unreliable. You strive hard to achieve excellence. Your drive to be recognized as successful keeps you on track toward your lofty goals. You often have a strong sense of direction in life, but may sometimes be too single-minded and obsessed with your work. You have strong will-power and are able to overcome your reluctance to begin tasks. You are able to stay on track despite distractions. You often say or do the first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives.

Umm, yeah. Congrats tho those who actually roughed it out and read it.
If not, oh well. I wouldn't ave read it, either. ^_^

chelsea dagger [userpic]

I'm an updating fiend!

September 1st, 2006 (11:48 pm)

Raaawr, Chelsea is not a happy camper.
Not at the moment, at least.

But I'll just go to bed and be happy in the morning!

Because that's what the new Chelsea does, she bounces back!

I'm a rubber band...or a trampoline!

Well....that was odd. I need to hire an official pep talk professional, it would make me very happy, yes indeed.

*negative thought*


*banishes it with a flyswatter*

Positive Statement: I need to work on not letting things get to me. Being sensitive is good, but being a downright wuss is baaaaaad. Yay, another goal to work on!

I just need to hug my teddy and hopefully I'll feel better. : )

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